I am so overwhelmed by Christmas this year. I don’t know how else to explain all of the staring at the ornaments (still in their boxes) and the lack of Christmas shopping I have engaged in. Usually, by now, I have half of my gifts wrapped and under the tree. I have been doing some serious procrastinating this year.
The other day Tiny-Small and I were shopping for Christmas lights and a big, red bow. I just stood in front of the bows staring in awe at the selection. This man and his daughter were roaming the aisle throwing every other item into their cart and I could not even choose a bow. The man, seeing me staring, thought he and his daughter were in my way and told his daughter to move, but I told them, “You are fine. I am just mesmerized by Christmas.” He laughed, then looked nervous, then steered his daughter to the next aisle.
Meanwhile, Tiny-Small was touching everything she could reach and proclaiming how beautiful the sparkly, shiny, barking, blinking, ugly angels and tinsel that is Christmas all were. I was still mesmerized. Christmas is a bizarre holiday when you step back and look at it. We spend all of our money on toys that break and eat too many sweets and decorate our houses in gaudy extravagance. Yet, I still love it. I do love Christmas. I think I do anyway.
This year is just different for some reason. I am loving it quietly and from the inside. I am making many of my gifts this year because I feel like in the last 20 years or so I have bought everything for everyone. I mean, what more could they ever want or need? Tiny-Small is the only family member outgrowing her clothes. Everyone else has a house full of stuff. Nobody really needs anything and probably just buys what they want to anyway. I have this overwhelming urge to protect Christmas this year. It’s not supposed to be just about the stuff. It’s supposed to be about people and love and hope for the future, right?
So, hopefully I will get my house decorated today. My trees are up, but they just have lights on them. They need some ornaments. Then I can focus on getting my gifts made. Then I can start the baking. I think, at least for this year, I am going to stay out of the stores as much as possible. All of the flashing, motorized singing is mesmerizing me into a Christmas coma of some kind. I think this year I am going to honor the quiet I feel in my soul and aim to keep things simple. What are you doing this year to honor your holiday traditions? Are you making any changes to your holiday so the traditions you create become more aligned with your personal values?