I am getting ready to hole up in my art studio for a creative marathon. I’ll be painting until the cows come home! I should feel tired just thinking about it, but instead I am completely energized. I have so much gratitude right now.
My kickstarter reached it’s funding goal. I am hoping to double the pledges before it ends because the art display walls are super expensive, but I am so grateful for the help I have received. It’s been an amazing experience so far. Asking for help and accepting it makes me feel vulnerable, but facing that fear and seeing the outpouring of support has been incredibly humbling. I appreciate everyone who had made a pledge, shared my project, and offered encouraging words of support. I totally jumped up and down for at least three minutes straight when I woke up and got the email saying my project would be funded. Woo hoo!
I’m really excited about the art show in June. I’ve been working hard planning and painting. I want my best work to be on display. The art show requires about 90% of your work be original pieces. I am going to be over-prepared because that is what I do. The hours I spend painting between now and then are going to be hard to count. I even bought a special lamp so I can paint at night (while the kiddo sleeps) and still have “natural” light so my colors won’t be off. Wish me speed and devotion. I’m going to need it. I am also grateful for this opportunity and experience. It truly feels like a dream come true.
I am also so grateful to friends and family who patiently listen to me and support me through moments of doubt and fear. I’ve been sick and have been taking care of sick family members. As the minutes, hours, and days tick by I feel the time pressure sucking my breath away. I struggle to stay calm even though I’ve lost at least a weeks worth of painting time. I debated cancelling the art show because I wasn’t sure I could get it all done. My family said no way. Never make decisions when you are sick. Now that I am feeling better I say NO WAY too.
I am nervous because putting my work in a real art show with real artists makes me feel a bit like an imposter. Will everyone look at my work and know I am an amateur? Thank goodness for the friends in my life who offer encouragement and tell me my doubts are silly because I do belong at the art show! I am clinging to those conversations during moments of fear. I have the best friends ever.