I am waiting. I am waiting for lots of things. Things I don’t really have control over. I am waiting for this hack to be removed from my blog…completely removed. I hired a security company to debug this blog because it was clearly a problem completely out of my code writing and removing league. The company removed the hack in record time, but I see the creepy ads for drugs still showing up in Google searches. So, I am not sure if Google just hasn’t updated the changes on my blog or if the hack is still there hiding in some secret code. So I am waiting to see what happens. Meanwhile, Google says one of the keywords from that hack is on this blog over 5000 times. Wow. So, I wait and see what happens. Meanwhile, I am an accidental pharmaceutical pusher.
I am also waiting for my house to magically clean itself. I am waiting for my tomatoes to turn red. I am waiting to call a few family members who just lost a loved one because I want to give them some space to grieve and I know everyone else will be calling right now. I am waiting for Tiny-Small to wake up from a nap. I am waiting for my weight to drop off so my clothes will fit again. I am waiting. I used to be really good at waiting, but as I have gotten older I find myself getting more impatient. I have to take a lot of deep breaths and remind myself that patience is a virtue. I have to stop hyperventilating. I have to stop worrying and let it all go. I am also waiting to master the art of living in the moment.
While I wait, I paint.
I was reading Carrie Schmitt’s blog and she said she often uses magazine covers as the color palette for her paintings. She probably uses home decorating magazines and gardening magazines, but I wanted to try her “trick” out and all I could find was this parenting-type magazine. I noticed AARP had pretty much the same colors on the cover too. I guess these are the “in” colors right now. I mixed my colors right on the magazine cover to match them as closely as I could. Then I added purple and yellow because I am never very good at following directions. Also, I chose to paint crocuses and they are purple. Plus, I love purple. So, even though there was no yellow and no purple on the magazine cover I ended up using them anyway.
Well, I am waiting and writing this because I want to see if the hack comes up when I post a new post. Technically I am still on a content writing break even though I am writing content. I don’t seem to be able to keep any of the blog promises I make. I contradict myself often, which I guess is the one thing you can probably count on! So, here is my non-content content. If there are ads for magic beans and money laundering please accept my apology.
This is really just a test. A test for this blog and a test for my patience. I really hope I pass.